Sunday, March 25, 2007
SPH just ended, I'm here struggling with my homework, and I have seriously no mood to continue.
Sometimes I really wonder if I really belong in RG.
And life is gonna suck from tomorrow, with no training on Monday and Friday. Closing date for Nat Jnrs entries, on Friday. Which gives me 4 days to decide if I want to do hurdles for Nat Jnrs.
I don't think I've ever been so frightened of hurdles before. Maybe it's just the fear of failure, of not being able to reach the next hurdle that comes my way, or falling down if I use my other leg, or even doing some shit timing like 19 sec+++. My speed isn't good enough to cover 8.5m. My legs aren't long enough to reach 8.5m. I'M JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO DO 8.5M. I really miss being in C Div; 80m hurdles seemed like the perfect event to do. And right now, there so many times I've wondered what in the world am I doing in hurdles. Sec three honestly stinks, I want to balance training and studies but studies are always heavier on the scale. I WISH HOMEWORK NEVER EXISTED. And my dream of running hurdles in WALA? I regret not pushing harder in sec two. Now that I've "upgraded" to 100m hurdles, it's absolutely impossible. And thats the cold hard truth for you, Cheryl. Say goodbye to the good old times.Doesn't it hurt so much when you can't do something you really love to your expectations?
Posted at 9:56 PM
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